Thursday, June 14, 2012

Indecisive.

Good Morning!
I decided to wake up extra early this morning to get a jump start on my day because there is always way too many things to do and never enough time! I have work at 9:30, so I am catching up on some clothes washing, new teen mom watching, and breakfast eating.. because I need breakfast and all. It actually feels good to be able to sit around in front of the tv and get some things done without having to rush around getting ready for work and miss breakfast and not have enough time to pack a lunch! Sorry, I'm rambling!

On to the topic of this post. I recently received my associates degree in arts(general studies) from a small local community college. I had applied at two different radiology schools because I was planning on becoming an medical sonographer. (funny note: computer tried to correct sonographer into pornographer...) Anyways, I will not be a medical pornographer, that's for sure! My computer has a mind of it's own, but on a down note, I did not get accepted into either one of the radiology schools even though I had a 3.4 gpa and my last semester that i completed I held a 4.0 (even though I only took one literature class...which is my worst subject!) I have managed to juggle working a nearly full time job, cooking and cleaning house constantly, and a full time student for all of my semesters except one. I think I've done a dern good job.. but this is what I'm left with.

I am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and I believe that God is trying to tell me that there are bigger and better things in store for me! I have thought and thought and thought about it and come to the realization that I was only choosing to be a sonographer because It was in the medical field (stable job in the future) and the income was decent. I need to figure out what will make me happy. What do I want to do? What am I interested in? It's so hard to answer all of these questions because I have never really had the time to get involved in something that I am truly passionate for. I worked two jobs during high school, was in the national art honor society, key club, and played soccer for most of those years..and was an honor student! I have always lead an extremely busy life! So I know no different.

I've been trying to make a decision soon so that I can get started on my future. My favorite subject is math, and I absolutely love all things artsy! I thought of being a math teacher, interior designer, or an architect.. maybe an accountant. Can anyone think of any other careers that involve math and art?! Still trying to make a decision, but I know that it will come to me soon. Just doing a little researching here and there and hoping for an answer from God. I know he will lead me in the right direction.

My uncle reminded me that he didn't finish college until he was 27 years of age.. It gives me some reassurance that it's okay to not rush things. I need to figure out what I want to do and what will make me happy. In the meantime, it's working a ton and enjoying the summer.. because I have gone taken summer classes through college every summer until now! I needed a break and that's what I'm taking. Catching some rays and loving the Mississippi weather along with my fresh vegetables from my small garden!


xoxo,
Lauren :)

2 comments:

  1. So glad you are really thinking this through to figure out what will make you happy. Being happy with your job makes all the difference in the world. If I had to do it over again, I wish I would have been a teacher. It would be so awesome to have summers off to be with Olivia (and hopefully another baby someday). Are you interested in teaching little kids? It would involve your favorite subject and being artsy/craftsy. And when you and Justin have your own babies, you can spend summers teaching them about gardening, cooking, and being creative. I don't know about you, but working for corporate and being stuck behind a desk all year round gets really old!!!

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    1. I just saw this! I never get comments on here, so I was jumping for Joy when I saw your comment! :D I feel like I may be wasting a little of time, but you know what.. It's sort of worth it to me. I needed a small break and it allows me time to think about what I really want to do! I have thought about being a math teacher actually, but for middle or high school. I like the thought of teaching one subject, and not all. I love artsy stuff too though, so an architect has actually been on my mind as well. I'm going to make a decision here soon. Got to! But thanks for reassuring me that what I'm doing is the right thing! :D Hope to see ya'll soon!

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